Well, well, well.

Here I am at my blog after exactly how many days,

my memory fails me.

Partly because of my computer's breakdown

I think my lack of web activity can also be

reasoned to my busy schedule at school.

AJC, so far, has been very kind to me

by not giving me any intolerable people to

handle or emotion-immune creatures to

give a piece of my mind to.

TLDDS has a been the highlight of

my first month of junior college life.

Straightaway, I have entered the compeitiive

nature of the TLDDS scene with Arangam and

SYF.

In Cedar, I had to uphold 52 years of honour and

here I have to do the same for a short but highly successful 25 years.

Even though, in mind, body and soul,

I am forever a Cedarian,

a AJCian is being moulded in me because of CCA, once again.

In my journey to what I hope, success,

I want to leave behind a legacy like how I did for Cedar.

And I'm going to do that defending my college's academic and

aesthetic honour.

But one thing keeps nagging me

at the back of my mind.

The fact that no one knows me.

By that, I do not mean knowing

my existance and name.

It's knowing about me, the person I am.

I know it is a bit too early but

I want to show people who I am.

My past as a very very, how do I put this,

fiery senior,

they way I lead two different lives,

my temper, my patience.

I guess I have to give it time

but I don't think people in JC

have the priveledge of time or interest

to know a person inside out.

Just a thought struck me.

Acceptance.

A trivial but vital matter.

In Cedar, Sapta, acceptance was never a problem because

I knew I had people who could accept me with

all my flaws and beauty.

I don't want to dwell on it because

it is not such a important thing to worry about.

I am going with the flow at the moment.

I have become very self-concious, I've realized.

Lots of questions popping up and

my awkwardness around people of the

opposite gender.

I cannot do anything about it because I have

been nutured in a girls' school.

Girls' school girls can be generally categorized into

two groups.

Those who come out to be shy and those who

come out to be very outgoing.

I belong in the former but

both groups definitely have the upper hand

of being highly independant, headstrong and steadfast

in their choices and actions

compared to co-ed girls.

I'm proud of where I come from

and where I am.

All praise to God who knows

where His servant shines the most.

By the way, I would like to share this quote

that has been imprinted into my mind.

" If you have great friends like mine,

raise your glasses,

If not,

raise your standards. "

My alcohol-free pure mineral water sparkles in the light

that penetrates my glass.