Dear Allahuthallah,
My heart is bleeding.
Seeking refuge in your name
where it all began.
It's too painful.
Please, help me out.
I know this is punishment.
For what I did and didn't do.
You've made it clear.
I've learnt a lesson.
Hard.
You've struck where it hurts most.
Please forgive me.
I'm sorry.
I'm still a true believer
of the fact that you do
everything with a reason.
Love and faith,
Shabana.